MISS YOU SO MUCH

I dont know when your existence have become dependent..
Asking myself when will I just shatter completely when I was not talking to someone I used to talk to everyday.. I still remember we named each other many different name..When I was really no mood, you will explain what I'm piss off about to comfort me.. But I think Im really get too over already.. Keep stoling your time.. And one day I dont know what I've said and feel like you're getting away from me.. And you never chat with me the next day..

My heart isnt strong enough for this.. I try my best not to show emotion but inside my soul is being eaten away. Just because Im used to it, doesnt mean it doesnt hurt anymore. :'(
Im becoming crueller by the minute and I dont intend to do a damn thing about it..

I'm sorry if I say I need ya but I dont care
Im scared of love cause when Im not with you Im weaker
Is that so wrong, is it so wrong that you make me STRONG.




One of the things I've come to love about life is that it's never just one thing.
At times we are filled with joy, boredom or loss and despair.
All of these emotions make up the fabric of our lives.
We cannot control everything but we can control how we allow these varied moments to affect us.
I used to take every disappointment as a major loss, a personal statement about the future of dreams.
Now I have learned that life will be filled with every shade of feelings, every texture of emotions, and that there's beauty in that as long as I honor myself truthfully in every moment...


I am strong because I've been weak
I am fearless because I've been afraid
I am wise because I've been foolish.

Trusting people is becoming hard
Keeping my grades up is becoming hard
Feeling happy is becoming hard
Thinking happy thoughts is becoming hard
Doing work is becoming hard
Maintaining a friendship is becoming hard
Doing everything  is becoming hard and I dont like it..


Here I am staring your perfection..
And now on Im going the direction with you even Im still at your back.